it's getting worse...

Everyday i feel like i'm standing alone in this world. Ppl are giving up hope on me. You too. I think i need professional help. I talk about my so called 'true friends'.. Hell with them.

the world and me

Lately, i'm becoming a little depressed. Even turning alittle suicidal. I really hope it is due to the time of the month and the ridiculous thoughts thats passing through my head. But i kinda rmbed the very last time i felt like this about the same issue, i wasnt in the time of the month.

Even when i'm out with friends, i feel like i'm totally out of the universe. Like i dont belong anywhere near them. All i think about is you. U've became my comfort zone and i cant seem to step out of it. I sometimes wonder what would happen if you really left me? would i really turn suicidal?
I like to think myself as a strong person; lately this doesnt seem true. Am i losing all the happiness i get when i interact with ppl? The lively colours of my world seem to be fading into shades of grey.
People seem to distant themselves from me bcos i've loss all my usual hapiness that i give them. The truth is, i'm all alone in this world.