This used to be a place where i vent my frustrations over him. Now, this particular entry is just for momento sake. To record down what just happened today.

I'm always the one wanting to meet, no matter how long we've not seen each other. I'm a girl afterall. I've since changed from the "I will not initiate" to the initiative me. I've grown independent. Of course, not up to his standards yet.

Work's been tough. He doesnt know. He's not giving me any support in any way either. The stress of meeting appts and meeting targets. The stress of my managers questioning me on why I did not meet the expected target hunts me day-in day-out. Yet I still willingly set aside time daily to talk to him. Make an effort to meet him. But, the response i get in return is very much disappointing. I've repeatedly told him that I sleep at ard 11pm daily, so let's make it a point to talk before we sleep. It's definitely not much to ask right? but hell no. It IS too much for him.

Guys... When in courtship and relationship. What a BIGBIG difference. It's a month late. My 3rd yr gift from him. I'm trying hard not to bug him from him. Call it a test.. I really do want to know how much do I stand in his heart.

We had a massive quarrel today.. And I've never felt so hurt my entire life before. My pride's been smashed like a million times.

I called him at least 20 times. and that 20 times, he hung up on me. Not only so... He cut several calls while i was speaking.. An aries has massive pride. I wonder if he even cared. On my side.. I'm in office on a sunday.. I'm 10 appt short and I'm treated like shit. Not only so..
HA, he said i was like his ex. What an insult.

Babe, when are u going to stand up on ur own feet? Are u really going to wait for him to do something drastic before u realise what u're in?