bastard

1. Same thing happening again and again. Throughout the train ride, didn't say a single thing. 2. When I said sorry, u left me. 3. Couldnt be decent enough to drop a msg to say we'll talk things thru while I had to meet a client 4. No calls, and when I called nv thought of asking me to go over. 5. Wait for me to solve things Bastard

我真傻

Happy 3 years 11 months to myself. This is definitely not what I thought it'll end up to. I planned all this. Excitedly. For who? For myself. Cos u don't remember again. Well, u say u do. But there'd a difference btw just remembering and keeping it Close to your heart. I woke up at 1.30 seeing u so focused in your game. Don't remember a shit. The thing about you is u always try to put out the fire after setting the fire. It's never about preventing the fire. Hate it. After going through this for 47 times, I thought things may be different. But no. It's still me remembering. Still me holding on to it.

on the phone

Damn freaking u! Irritate the hell out of me. Wad the hell is wrong w u.

u!

You revengeful guy.

on the 40th month..

You gave me fever, yet u turned your back against me.. You were pissed.. For wat?! The only reason why I'm like in this state is bcos I looked after you ystd.. Damn. I'm pissed cos u changed my picture and you didn't even change yours. No excuse for your forgetfulness. And it is nothing to do about calculative..

thanks..

Thanks for pissing me yet again. I hate it when I've got to go to bed feeling pissed and mad. Pls to a temper check. Freaking hell. What happened to ur patience? I WILL NEVER EVER AGAIN TOUCH YOUR PHONE, NEITHER WILL I ASK ABOUT YOUR ACTIVITIES! U know it's not th guy when he doesn't spend time with your family. Even worse, during birthdays. Screw it. Shall nt celebrate urs either. The number if times I spend time over at your family for dinner and events is countless. What about you?! How many times have u had a decent meal with my family?!

This used to be a place where i vent my frustrations over him. Now, this particular entry is just for momento sake. To record down what just happened today.

I'm always the one wanting to meet, no matter how long we've not seen each other. I'm a girl afterall. I've since changed from the "I will not initiate" to the initiative me. I've grown independent. Of course, not up to his standards yet.

Work's been tough. He doesnt know. He's not giving me any support in any way either. The stress of meeting appts and meeting targets. The stress of my managers questioning me on why I did not meet the expected target hunts me day-in day-out. Yet I still willingly set aside time daily to talk to him. Make an effort to meet him. But, the response i get in return is very much disappointing. I've repeatedly told him that I sleep at ard 11pm daily, so let's make it a point to talk before we sleep. It's definitely not much to ask right? but hell no. It IS too much for him.

Guys... When in courtship and relationship. What a BIGBIG difference. It's a month late. My 3rd yr gift from him. I'm trying hard not to bug him from him. Call it a test.. I really do want to know how much do I stand in his heart.

We had a massive quarrel today.. And I've never felt so hurt my entire life before. My pride's been smashed like a million times.

I called him at least 20 times. and that 20 times, he hung up on me. Not only so... He cut several calls while i was speaking.. An aries has massive pride. I wonder if he even cared. On my side.. I'm in office on a sunday.. I'm 10 appt short and I'm treated like shit. Not only so..
HA, he said i was like his ex. What an insult.

Babe, when are u going to stand up on ur own feet? Are u really going to wait for him to do something drastic before u realise what u're in?