freaking hell, 5mims become 1hr

You said you'll be done in 5mins. And now I waited for at least an hr alrdy. And you still have a cheek to tell me that you'll reach amk at 7.15pm. What nonsense. It's 7.42 now and you haven left ofc. So much for cutting hair today. What crap. Stop giving stupid empty promises. And I thought today wanted to lunch, end up setting up another apt w someone else. I can take it if it's work. But, cant you just tell me straight in the face. Don't say nice stuff and bluff me lah. Idiotface.

just sent in a text

I just sent in a text and now I'm fearful. Of what? Cos I'm afraid he'll agree to the break? I'm sucha coward. Why why why. This is really stupid.

time

You need time for friendship maintenence,how about relationship maintenance? I am always the one initiating. All the time. Makes me feel weak. And then when the weekends come, you expect me to be free? Like what the hell?

as i say...

I tell my friends that if you want to find a bf, find one that dotes on u and has a good temper. That's the most important. Somehow mine doesn't have this 2 quality. Since when does guys have mood swing?! This crazy mood swing of yours is feaking driving me nuts. The longer u keep quiet and stand in your corner, the more I boil. You don't get it do you. Feaking 15 mins has passes since I just say beside u doing freaking nothing while u read ur comic and ignoring me. Argh!!!!!!!!!! Is this the guy u wanna marry!

stop wasting my time

I pushed away an apt today so I could accompany your parents. Yet at the last min they said they didn't want to go and left me with no plans. I then decided that I shall come and find u instead but u and your bad ass mood decided to throw a freaking hell temper at me cos I said I didn't like to go to the library. What a sunday. Seriously a waste of my time.

bastard

1. Same thing happening again and again. Throughout the train ride, didn't say a single thing. 2. When I said sorry, u left me. 3. Couldnt be decent enough to drop a msg to say we'll talk things thru while I had to meet a client 4. No calls, and when I called nv thought of asking me to go over. 5. Wait for me to solve things Bastard

我真傻

Happy 3 years 11 months to myself. This is definitely not what I thought it'll end up to. I planned all this. Excitedly. For who? For myself. Cos u don't remember again. Well, u say u do. But there'd a difference btw just remembering and keeping it Close to your heart. I woke up at 1.30 seeing u so focused in your game. Don't remember a shit. The thing about you is u always try to put out the fire after setting the fire. It's never about preventing the fire. Hate it. After going through this for 47 times, I thought things may be different. But no. It's still me remembering. Still me holding on to it.