Rant 16 (all older post lost, cos i deleted it)

i shouldnt have deleted the old gimiabreak old blog.. no more avenure for me to vent my anger. so i'm starting a new one. i dont care if you find out about it.. venting out my anger like this feels good.

I blame my stupid self for recalling these unhappy thoughts.
At the table, when asked who am i voting for, my immediate candidate was u.. then i said, of cos i'll vote for my boon. A while later, u arrived at my table and announced that u were going to vote for someone else.. Knowing how i'll feel, i quickly turned away my attention.. but i know deep dwn, u've already tore open a part of my heart.. In front of everyone, whom i proudly mention that i'll be voting for u, i feel embrassed that u announced that u were voting for her instead. Now, i'm even regretting sending that sms to vote for u.. I'm quite certain given a reverse role, u wldnt have done the same.

All the stupid lies about me being very dressed suited to the theme, being pretty; freaking fu***ing damn lies lies lies! i think i've learnt a lesson frm today.. The flair u have in ur communication skills(which also allow u to win arguments with me all the time) plays a big role in telling ur stupid fake sweettalking.

I really hope one day u'll feel the same way i do.. Instead of voting for u, i'll vote for bang.. First person to come to my mindwouldnt be u, but bang. See how deep it'll hurt u..


this incident conclude my question on wad position u'll vote me given i went to the camp with u.. Apparently u dun know me that well.. Apparently u didnt know that i was a secetrary during my cca days in sec sch and a treasurer in jc.. and i enjoyed these roles. But u think someone else, who's much more strong in her stand will be of a better candidate than me.. It freaking upsets me. But, i just kept quiet bout it. The only reason why i didnt become treasurer last yr was cos when they asked for volunteers, joan volunteered herself so much quicker b4 i had the time to react.. So many if these things u'll nv know.. It just upsets me to know that u think i'm not capable of leading. thanks so much ya.

Finally, thank you making the first thing i do on our 16th annivesary is to cry. I keep telling myself, enough of wasted tears on u already. Time to focus on something else.

I am the master of my emotions, why should i let you affect my mood.