once upon a time..

Once upon a time the sweet things that we did were special to us, now u feel like it's a chore.. Once upon a time the patience we had for each other, now snaps as if it's a light stick.

selfish

You know that he's selfish when he stops telling u things that help u. Just becos I rebuke the first time u make a vow in your head to stop bothering me. And that's selfish, cos u know u shld telling me to study, but u dun selfish selfish! I hate hate!

u and your temper..

Hate you giving me attitude when u are in a bad mood. Hate u with ur ulcers. U meanie!

He is one heartless creature..

Heartless! Unbelievable... Today marks our 31 month tog. No doubt a friday too. He totally going to leave me and join his friends to GAME! I cantcan't stand his gaming habbits anymore! Not only so, I cant believe that he actually pretend to not to see me crY! wad a JERK!!!! Though I may have given my consent the day before, I am disappointed that he didntdidn't eVen make an effort to make things better! Come on, cant u at least make an effort to change the Venue , or maybe end earlier? Things kind of things also need me to teach you? No heart.. Thats all i see.. I tried to be nice and all yesterday, cutting u the slack that for the hundredth time u forgot the day again... But the reason y I'm so mad is because how freaking a jerk u are by ignoring my feelings and pretending to not see me cry! At least in the past U'd had passed me a tissue! U dun deserve me! PISSED.

THEM

Yah right! THEM eat shit.

Rant 22

And now i feel stupid. My heart soften for just a split sec, and u took the advantage. U can all laugh at me now.
Let's start with yesterday: when u called at night, i just found out something that immediately put me in a really sad mood. But, NO u didnt realise..
Then u called again while i was outside, i was alrdy pissed that u took so long to call, then still shouted at me over the phone. But i still keep calling.. Aint I stupid? Whenever i hold on to the precious slience, it means something. Haven't you get it? It's called hoping for a chance. BUT NO! U dun get it. Never. Then another blow frm another incident, damn upset..
While getting ready to leave, called u again, hoping to have company during the dark journey back. Immediately after i put down the phone, i felt S T U P I D. why did i do it! It's not even appreciated. But at last i decided not to be so strong headed, and i didn't want it to end there, but u still dun know. I guess, it'll always be too much to expect from u to know. Why can't u call for the last time?
Then today, replies were painfully slow and S H O R T. I had a terrible day. and had been crying since early noon. In hope to get comfort from my partner, I got rejection. Then it dawned unto be that i have been relying too much on you. So i made a decision. But then your sigh made me soft hearted.. and now, i feel stupid again. i feel cheated. DAMN IT. screw u.
On a side note, i dressed up b4 i left hse, thinking of meeting u for a show.. U think i ALREADY KNEW that there was no dinner?

When all i need is a kiss

When was your last kiss?
I've read somewhere before that a girl judge her r/s by how often they kiss. I guess it's i am this kind of girl. And the last kiss was about 2 to 3 months ago? The fact that i cant even remember the last kiss means something. It means that i haven been kissing him for a long time.
No, i do not want any kisses on the cheek. Kiss me; kiss me real.

Ever felt like everything is on the balance scale, balanced. Yet, there is still unhappiness? Wads the missing ingredient in it? I have nnnooo idea. I'm just generally not happy. Why?!

Maybe I'm just not ready to love. Just caught Valentine's day in theathers today: love is to love every single part of the person, even the worst. Sounds hard to me. Sometimes i wonder is it the lack of experience that makes me what i am today.. Or do i have to learn it the hard way?